God is Good

God is so good, I woke up blank and even today I am just so blank. I was thinking about my life and the choices I have made and good and bad. I was like did I really love my husband when I first married him. Hmm.
That was a question I had no answer to, the question.

Then I was in the car and listening to the radio. The word was good, I didn't even mean to listen to the gospel channel, but I was listening to it and the word was good. The pastor talked about God placing people in your life for a reason.

When I first got married, I loved my husband with my whole heart, but his mom and sister would wait until my husband went to work and tell me things about him and really nothing good. I admit now that I look back on it, I did not have God number one in my life at the time so I allowed the enemy to come into my life and take control.

Daniel 9:9 (King James Version)

 ⁹To the Lord our God belong mercies and forgivenesses, though we have rebelled against him;

From then on I had anger and resentment for my husband, but it wasn't him it was me. I allowed the enemy to come in because I had no idea at the time I needed God to be number one in my life.


God sent so much into my life to shake me up to open my eyes, I love God so much for all he does. If it wasn't for God shaking up my life and opening my eyes I would be where I was and lost comfortable living a life of hate, anger, resentment, and lust.

I say thank you Jesus every day of my life, God opened my eyes to the world around me, I was able to see my husband the real him, I was able to see me, do you hear me I was able to see me.
I prayed and asked God to please forgive me, right now my husband and I are separated he want to get a divorce and I said to the Lord "God I want to follow your path and your will, please take control over me"

It took everything in me to forgive, forgive my mother -n-law, sis-n-law, husband, and it took the longest for me to forgive myself.

I forgave because how can I say I and a Christian and not forgive, how can I preach one thing and do another, Jesus died on the cross for us and  made a blueprint for the way we should live our lives but we choose not to live them that way. If I continue to choose to sin when I know what I am doing is wrong then it is saying "I don't care, Jesus died for me" I want to give thanks at all times and show God I appreciate all he has blessed me with because if it wasn't for him it would be no me.

2 Samuel 22:50 (King James Version)

 ⁵⁰Therefore I will give thanks unto thee, O LORD, among the heathen, and I will sing praises unto thy name.