Hebrews 10:24-25 () 24 And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, 25 not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near. #Bible http://j.mp/i2sLHy

As many of you know I haven't felt anything in a while. Like no sadness and no happiness, I have been like blaaaa. Recently I met a wonderful guy, I mean wonderful in every way, like I should be talking to him as a friend but I am like no. He inspired me to follow my dreams and creativity, so I have really been focusing on me and Adrian. So I thank God for using him to bring that smile back. I am sad that he and I could have a great relationship but I really don't want a relationship with anyone.
I don't even have any desires for anyone. I know he is a great guy but yes you all it is me, I know I know. He is a very successful man and has really encouraged he to follow my success. I have been celibate relationship wise since 2009 when I have to leave my son dad and I have been celibate physically since my son dad. I don't want to be in a relationship until God guide the man he created to me.  I know I have to follow God. Joshua 1:8 () 8 This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. #Bible http://j.mp/gPUojz

Thank you Father in Heaven Teach me

God I trust everything will be just fine because you said it’s going to be just great. I know in my heart, my life, my readings, and my teachings your blessing me every day. I know by just living my life Father in Heaven you know what is in my heart and my desires. I know you are reveling to me your answering my prayers because when I think it you send your people in my life, you send your word to me by showing me you are here with me. You show me you are answering my prayers and I should not give up on you Father in Heaven I love you so much. I thank you so much. I truly know you exist God thank you.

I know I have lots of questions and I am always asking when are you going to bless me and how will you bless me, I just don’t realize like many other people that your blessing me everyday when I look at my son, my mother, my father, my family I need to give thanks for your blessings. I need to give thanks when I go home at night, I need to give thanks when I get a paycheck, and I need to give thanks I have a home to go to. I need to give thanks because I am able to praise you in the open and attend services dedicated to you. God I have no idea like so many other humans in this world the wonderful miraculous blessings you have bestowed upon us. 

Yet, I still doubt you God when I feel like my life isn’t the way I want it to be. I want my life a certain way and I want things when I want them God and I expect you to give them to me when I want my blessings. We are quick to say you are the one and only God in our life. We are afraid to admit we are our own God we want the glory and praise to come to us, we give to the poor and quick to say I gave this or that to that person. When a disaster hit we make sure others know what we done to do our part “I went to help the Katrina victims”. When we help our neighbors “I had to loan **** some money to pay their bills or I had to help ***** get their car fix. When we our family and friends are in trouble and need a shoulder to lean on “Well I had to talk to *** the other day, You know they having problem and I am helping them all I could.” Are we really giving God all the glory?

Father in heaven RELEASE ME from the bond of the world, my old life, my old ways and Baptize me with your anointing.

God I release myself unto you and I give you all the glory, I am nothing without you Father in Heaven.

King James Matthew 8:8

The centurion answered and said, Lord, I am not worthy that thou shouldest come under my roof: but speak the word only, and my servant shall be healed.

God has our back...

I am excited to know God has my back and daily protects my son Adrian and myself.
I plan to definitely raise my son in the way of God. Adrian is my baby and God is using him to save me. I love God so much for blessing me with Adrian. Bible Verse - Matthew 16:24 ()

24 Then Jesus told his disciples, If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. #Bible http://j.mp/gTyBnr
Adrian will be a man of God with the faith to move mountains, my son will be blessed with an anointed spirit. My son has to be protected from the ways of this world.
Thank you Jesus 4 sacrificing yourself on the cross

1 John 2:24-25 () 24 Let what you heard from the beginning abide in you. If what you heard from the beginning abides in you, then you too will abide in the Son and in the Father. 25 And this is the promise that he made to useternal life. #Bible http://j.mp/fxBpv1

Humble thyself

Acts 20:35 () 35 In all things I have shown you that by working hard in this way we must help the weak and remember the words of the Lord Jesus, how he himself said, It is more blessed to give than to receive. #Bible http://j.mp/ebCX7J

Another victory

Today God confirmed the fear I had. A lady I now admire was used by God to heal me. For weeks she had been asking me to visit her church and I put it off. Then one Tuesday for prayer days I took my son to visit that church and he been asking me For 3 weeks to take him back there (God used my son) as I walked in the first person I see was the lady that invited me. We took my son to youth church.
She was like hold on wait I have to get my fiancee, as I waited for her and her fiancee, I noticed something different.
He is blind like all the way blind. I at first thought he would be partially, but no blind blind. As I was looking at her gentally care for him, walking with her man up the stairs. I thought for the rest of her life she has to take care of him. How humble can a diligent servant of God get.
My eyes was opened to what God was telling me. Katie you have to loose who you are if you want to be one of mines. Wow it hit me.
When we got into the sanctuary, this servant of God was called away to help another in need. I became scared and asked God to speak to me.
God then spoke to me and God used my son once again. When service was over the pastor said if we wanted to stay to pray we could. I was scared and I wanted to stay, but I was like no I have to get my son. As my son and I got into the car and we were pulling away, my baby told me "Why did you leave you was suppose to stay up stairs" I was like why. He told me "you needed to" I kept saying to myself next time be cause it scared me. It didn't seem like it was him telling me. 
I prayed and was like we may visit again.

Corinthians 7:1

2 Corinthians 7:1 () 7:1 Since we have these promises, beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from every defilement of body and spirit, bringing holiness to completion in the fear of God. #Bible http://j.mp/eBqiph

God is Good

God is so good, I woke up blank and even today I am just so blank. I was thinking about my life and the choices I have made and good and bad. I was like did I really love my husband when I first married him. Hmm.
That was a question I had no answer to, the question.

Then I was in the car and listening to the radio. The word was good, I didn't even mean to listen to the gospel channel, but I was listening to it and the word was good. The pastor talked about God placing people in your life for a reason.

When I first got married, I loved my husband with my whole heart, but his mom and sister would wait until my husband went to work and tell me things about him and really nothing good. I admit now that I look back on it, I did not have God number one in my life at the time so I allowed the enemy to come into my life and take control.

Daniel 9:9 (King James Version)

 ⁹To the Lord our God belong mercies and forgivenesses, though we have rebelled against him;

From then on I had anger and resentment for my husband, but it wasn't him it was me. I allowed the enemy to come in because I had no idea at the time I needed God to be number one in my life.


God sent so much into my life to shake me up to open my eyes, I love God so much for all he does. If it wasn't for God shaking up my life and opening my eyes I would be where I was and lost comfortable living a life of hate, anger, resentment, and lust.

I say thank you Jesus every day of my life, God opened my eyes to the world around me, I was able to see my husband the real him, I was able to see me, do you hear me I was able to see me.
I prayed and asked God to please forgive me, right now my husband and I are separated he want to get a divorce and I said to the Lord "God I want to follow your path and your will, please take control over me"

It took everything in me to forgive, forgive my mother -n-law, sis-n-law, husband, and it took the longest for me to forgive myself.

I forgave because how can I say I and a Christian and not forgive, how can I preach one thing and do another, Jesus died on the cross for us and  made a blueprint for the way we should live our lives but we choose not to live them that way. If I continue to choose to sin when I know what I am doing is wrong then it is saying "I don't care, Jesus died for me" I want to give thanks at all times and show God I appreciate all he has blessed me with because if it wasn't for him it would be no me.

2 Samuel 22:50 (King James Version)

 ⁵⁰Therefore I will give thanks unto thee, O LORD, among the heathen, and I will sing praises unto thy name.

Moving on

In order to continue the process of letting go it is important to heal in the process. During our spiritual journey we often are hurt.
The enemy has to carry out his purpose to kill-steal-and destroy. But you have to remember we all have free will you can choose to allow the enemy to do his job or move on and follow God

John 10:10:   ¹⁰The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

when you hold grudges against each other your holding a grudge against God, ask yourself "Would God treat me the way I am treating this person" If God treated you the way you treat each other would you be here?
What if Jesus had a choice to die on the cross for us or not die on the cross for us. What if Jesus chose not to die on the cross would you be here?

1. Malachi 4:2 (Whole Chapter)
   But unto you that fear my name shall the Sun of righteousness arise with healing in his wings; and ye shall go forth, and grow up as calves of the stall.

Stop. Think. Do I want to stay where I am with all this bottled up in me or do I want to move on, do I want to be healed, spread my wing and grow with God.
Once you have the grace of God in you there is no way you will continue to do the things you done before, stay who you once where. The Holy spirit will move inside you, make you want to chance your way of thinking, make you want to change your way of life. The holy spirit will make you want to forgive when you do not want to forgive, the holy spirit will make you want to give God all the glory and when you at your lowest point in life where before you want to give up throw in the towel. The holy spirit will bring you up.


Remember forgive always, ask what if Jesus treated me the way I am treating this person.

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Hebrews 12:1 ESV / 12 helpful votes

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us.




You do not understand how hard it is to let go. Yes i said it let it all go. You want to hold on to your memories, things and people from the past that you thought made you happy.

Really did they?
Did those things, people, memories make you happy?
Should you hold on to them any longer?

When God reveal things things to you it hurt, but it is a relief. A relief I can't explain.
I am so excited I found strength in God, because if I did not have God the information being revealed to me would hurt me. I mean it would kill me from the inside out. God has revealed so much to me that in the past I would cry and cry, but now I rejoice, I rejoice with love I have for God.
I am proud to admit and to let go of the past and embrace the new, embrace the blessings God has revealed to me for me and my new life.

All I can say is Thank you Jesus for paying the price and allowing me to be able to do what I do and praise you.