God is Good

God is so good, I woke up blank and even today I am just so blank. I was thinking about my life and the choices I have made and good and bad. I was like did I really love my husband when I first married him. Hmm.
That was a question I had no answer to, the question.

Then I was in the car and listening to the radio. The word was good, I didn't even mean to listen to the gospel channel, but I was listening to it and the word was good. The pastor talked about God placing people in your life for a reason.

When I first got married, I loved my husband with my whole heart, but his mom and sister would wait until my husband went to work and tell me things about him and really nothing good. I admit now that I look back on it, I did not have God number one in my life at the time so I allowed the enemy to come into my life and take control.

Daniel 9:9 (King James Version)

 ⁹To the Lord our God belong mercies and forgivenesses, though we have rebelled against him;

From then on I had anger and resentment for my husband, but it wasn't him it was me. I allowed the enemy to come in because I had no idea at the time I needed God to be number one in my life.


God sent so much into my life to shake me up to open my eyes, I love God so much for all he does. If it wasn't for God shaking up my life and opening my eyes I would be where I was and lost comfortable living a life of hate, anger, resentment, and lust.

I say thank you Jesus every day of my life, God opened my eyes to the world around me, I was able to see my husband the real him, I was able to see me, do you hear me I was able to see me.
I prayed and asked God to please forgive me, right now my husband and I are separated he want to get a divorce and I said to the Lord "God I want to follow your path and your will, please take control over me"

It took everything in me to forgive, forgive my mother -n-law, sis-n-law, husband, and it took the longest for me to forgive myself.

I forgave because how can I say I and a Christian and not forgive, how can I preach one thing and do another, Jesus died on the cross for us and  made a blueprint for the way we should live our lives but we choose not to live them that way. If I continue to choose to sin when I know what I am doing is wrong then it is saying "I don't care, Jesus died for me" I want to give thanks at all times and show God I appreciate all he has blessed me with because if it wasn't for him it would be no me.

2 Samuel 22:50 (King James Version)

 ⁵⁰Therefore I will give thanks unto thee, O LORD, among the heathen, and I will sing praises unto thy name.

Moving on

In order to continue the process of letting go it is important to heal in the process. During our spiritual journey we often are hurt.
The enemy has to carry out his purpose to kill-steal-and destroy. But you have to remember we all have free will you can choose to allow the enemy to do his job or move on and follow God

John 10:10:   ¹⁰The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

when you hold grudges against each other your holding a grudge against God, ask yourself "Would God treat me the way I am treating this person" If God treated you the way you treat each other would you be here?
What if Jesus had a choice to die on the cross for us or not die on the cross for us. What if Jesus chose not to die on the cross would you be here?

1. Malachi 4:2 (Whole Chapter)
   But unto you that fear my name shall the Sun of righteousness arise with healing in his wings; and ye shall go forth, and grow up as calves of the stall.

Stop. Think. Do I want to stay where I am with all this bottled up in me or do I want to move on, do I want to be healed, spread my wing and grow with God.
Once you have the grace of God in you there is no way you will continue to do the things you done before, stay who you once where. The Holy spirit will move inside you, make you want to chance your way of thinking, make you want to change your way of life. The holy spirit will make you want to forgive when you do not want to forgive, the holy spirit will make you want to give God all the glory and when you at your lowest point in life where before you want to give up throw in the towel. The holy spirit will bring you up.


Remember forgive always, ask what if Jesus treated me the way I am treating this person.

New New

Hebrews 12:1 ESV / 12 helpful votes

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us.




You do not understand how hard it is to let go. Yes i said it let it all go. You want to hold on to your memories, things and people from the past that you thought made you happy.

Really did they?
Did those things, people, memories make you happy?
Should you hold on to them any longer?

When God reveal things things to you it hurt, but it is a relief. A relief I can't explain.
I am so excited I found strength in God, because if I did not have God the information being revealed to me would hurt me. I mean it would kill me from the inside out. God has revealed so much to me that in the past I would cry and cry, but now I rejoice, I rejoice with love I have for God.
I am proud to admit and to let go of the past and embrace the new, embrace the blessings God has revealed to me for me and my new life.

All I can say is Thank you Jesus for paying the price and allowing me to be able to do what I do and praise you.