God is so good!
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. 6.In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
I am reminded of how great God is daily. I loved, lusted, and lost.
Matthew 5:28 But I say unto you, That whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart.
I just found out how God use people around us to reveal to us our hearts desires, and how true we are to him. God allowed me to go through three important phases, that I’ve truly learned a valuable lesson from and so glad God put me through it to learn from it. I am so pleased God used the person he used to show me how to love God stronger.
Psalm 73:26 My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.
Often as the flesh we want what we want and forget we need to want what God want for us, we think we can make the right decisions for our lives.
God reminded me I need to want what God wants for me. With emotions and fleshly temptations we know what God is telling us, but we try to tell God “Wait, no hold on, let me just see where this goes God, I am still for you Father in Heaven but!...” We see with our eyes and want with our hearts, we think if we could just have what we want then we could be happy.
God reminded me I need to want what God wants for me. With emotions and fleshly temptations we know what God is telling us, but we try to tell God “Wait, no hold on, let me just see where this goes God, I am still for you Father in Heaven but!...” We see with our eyes and want with our hearts, we think if we could just have what we want then we could be happy.
This is how God revealed to me how wonderful he is, I met an Amazing Mad Lovable man, then I broke up with him because I just knew it was wrong to love him the way I loved him. It seemed so right when I knew in my heart it was wrong God kept telling me over and over
"So are you going to start listening to me or what, now look at you these thoughts, this reaction, and the way you’re acting"
God kept showing me the signs and I refused to accept the signs. I lost my cell phone 2 phones, got into a carwreck, phone got cut off, dropped my laptop had to get a new one, and transmission went out in my car.
So.
I was missing him, I desired to talk to him, I wanted to feel his touch, and I wanted him so bad. It was a bad feeling I was like "this guy" , sadly we started back talking, against God's will, and I had the nerves to pray about it and God surely God revealed to me how God is in control of everything and everyone and sadly the guy and I broke up again, and my heart was broken for a moment.
Psalm 38:3 There is no soundness in my flesh because of thine anger; neither is there any rest in my bones because of my sin
So I dove into the bible to find answers asking to why, why am I always trusting people and getting hurt. I wanted to know why I was hurt God always reveal the truth to me, but, at that time I didn’t want to see or hear the truth because I was so happy someone loved me and I loved them back. I had went through a period of being emotionless, not capable of loving anyone or having feelings for anyone on an adult level.
I am so saved by God because the thoughts are just as bad as the actions, and God knows how bad I wanted to act on the thoughts of him that brought joy to my heart at that moment. I was mad because I know what I want for myself isn’t right and it will never be right, I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t trust God when God was telling me on every level it was going to end up wrong. I was mad because I feel like I can't trust God and I know God only want what's right for me.
I love God for loving me so much, God reveal the truth to me even when he knows it will hurt me but it’s all done in love and I wasn’t hurt as bad as I thought I was, after my commune with God it was all ok.
I am so saved by God because the thoughts are just as bad as the actions, and God knows how bad I wanted to act on the thoughts of him that brought joy to my heart at that moment. I was mad because I know what I want for myself isn’t right and it will never be right, I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t trust God when God was telling me on every level it was going to end up wrong. I was mad because I feel like I can't trust God and I know God only want what's right for me.
I love God for loving me so much, God reveal the truth to me even when he knows it will hurt me but it’s all done in love and I wasn’t hurt as bad as I thought I was, after my commune with God it was all ok.
Psalm 84:2 My soul longeth, yea, even fainteth for the courts of the LORD: my heart and my flesh crieth out for the living God.
This experience has brought me closer and closer to God, I am so Glad God allowed me to go through it, to learn from it and become stronger. I give God all the praise and all the glory for teaching me to love myself, and to love him stronger.
Jeremiah 32:27 Behold, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh: is there any thing too hard for me?
All I can say is I trust you Father in Heaven strip away from me the desires that are not of you. I know there is nothing too hard for God. I know if it is from God it is good. I know if I wait on God, and not rely on my own desires in the end I will get a greater blessing.