God forgive me please!

When I tell you God works God works. God is so Good!

Psalm 38:5
"My wounds stink and are corrupt because of my foolishness."

            I gained a tadbid information about myself a flaw I never really knew AFFECTED my personality in a negative way. I have to ask God to give me the strength to work on because it is one of his main sins.

2 Corinthians 11:17
"That which I speak, I speak it not after the Lord, but as it were foolishly, in this confidence of boasting."

James 4:16
"But now ye rejoice in your boastings: all such rejoicing is evil."

            *THESE PEOPLE JUST DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I TRULY LOVE THEM, BECAUSE GOD REALLY USED THEM TO REVEAL TO ME MY FAULTS/FLAWS AND WEAKNESSES THAT I NEED TO WORK ON.*
          I LOVE YOU GUYS AND GALS, MEN AND WOMEN, I APOLOGIZE. I WILL SHOUT IT FROM EVERY MOUNTAIN TOP IF I HAVE TO BECAUSE I WAS WRONG, WRONG, WRONG. MAKE A FOOL OF MYSELF INFRONT OF STRANGERS BECAUSE I WAS WRONG FOR THE UNGODLY OUTBURST, BOASTING, AND EVERYTHING ELSE THAT DID NOT GIVE YOU THE GLORY GOD.

Thank you God for using strangers that love me more than I loved myself, more than my blood family loved me. My own family fights with each other, talks about one another behind their backs, steals from each other, and competes with each other daily, they put each other down, and try to control each others every move.

The AA1 family has never ever done that, no matter how mad many of them get with me, still they have never treated me as bad as my blood family, they tell me the truth and revealed to me what I have not seen in myself. This family that you have revealed to me still loves me no matter what. Even when I give up on myself they don't give up on me. God I don't know how to love anyone else except for my son, he is the only one that has ever loved me for me and my faults.

 God you truly revealed to me the love this wonderful group of people have for me.

God you are truly good. Thank you Father in heaven for loving me more than I love myself. I never felt love from anyone like the love I get from the AA1 family, no matter what I put many of them through they still love me, they still come to me with respect, even after the disrespect, and don't sugar coat anything.

“Trust ye in the LORD for ever: for in the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength:” Isaiah 26:4 KJV

I don't even know how to apologize to the ones I have hurt the most, my heart is broken right now. Father in heaven please take control over this situation, take control over me, and reveal to my AA1 family how grateful I am to them for allowing you to reveal your love to me.

Daniel 9:9
"To the Lord our God belong mercies and forgivenesses, though we have rebelled against him"

I am so sorry God, please forgive me. Please allow them to forgive me God please.

Love and let Go

                            Tyler Perry is so right his message came at the time I needed it. I have been going through so much, with my divorce, my family and so called friends lately. I have a problem with forgiving. It seem so hard to forgive after someone has wronged me.
         I began to have hate stored up. I didn't hate my ex husband, I did hate my mom but I hated myself, I guess I hated myself for me allowing them to come into my heart and hurting me so bad. That hate I had for myself I would project on to others.
        
         My divorce was final on Wednesday, September 19, 2012 of last week and it is like a big weight lifted off me. I loved him for the fact we have a child together but after all we went through I didn't and do not love him as a person on a personal level. When the judge said it was over all of a sudden I felt this feeling of joy a feeling I hadn't felt in years. I felt happy, I felt like smiling, I felt like I was the beautifulest woman to ever walk the earth. I felt as if God opened the gates of heaven and was like "It doesn't get any better than this"  I felt God holding my hand and asking me to trust him from now on. I can say I love my ex as a brother in Christ but nothing more.

Isaiah 38:17
Behold, for peace I had great bitterness: but thou hast in love to my soul delivered it from the pit of corruption: for thou hast cast all my sins behind thy back.

         It took a long time for me to forgive him for all the pain and all the mischievousness,  I tell you God used so many people around me to save me, to teach me to love and forgive. It wasn't that they were "christian people", it wasn't the positive things, and it wasn't the advice. I truly tell you it was the negativity I seen in the people around me that forced me to forgive those that wronged me, because I was able to see them in the eyes God provided for me to see them in I began to see those that wronged me in a new light.

Ephesians 4:32And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ's sake hath forgiven you.

         I couldn't do anything else but forgive and love any and everyone that wronged me.  Christ forgive me daily, who am I not to forgive those that wrong me.


“Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompence of reward. For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise.” Hebrews 10:35-36 KJV

Hebrews 13:6 () 6 So we can confidently say, The Lord is my helper;I will not fear;what can man do to me? #Bible http://j.mp/iOqIRu

God loves you.....Romans 10:9-10 () 9 Because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved. #Bible http://j.mp/icLLPS

Sleepy Trust

Psalm 7

 ¹O LORD my God, in thee do I put my trust: save me from all them that persecute me, and deliver me:


So I can't sleep at all...... This is the deal....

I need to pray because I truly need to trust God and Trust God is going to take care of me and Adrian. I am going through some stuff right now... I'm confused and happy at the same time... I am tired and energized.

Boasting

      James 4:16
But now ye rejoice in your boastings: all such rejoicing is evil.
I just got off the phone with a dear friend of mines. We had a great convo. We talked about boasting and how sometimes people always try to one up each other.
In all the years I have known my bestie, I have never heard my bestie dwell on anything.
We prayed with each other and talked about how their family is so torn over small things.
                     Why go through it....
1. you can't take anything with you when you die,
2. You needed someone else to help you get there it might have been family, friends, and definatly God. (no matter if it was a babysitter, tutor, whatever, a friend to talk to)
3. you may boast about what you have or who you know but you don't know what THE OTHER PERSON have they MAY or may not HAVE MORE THAN YOU.
I told my bestie you don't have to always prove your worth to others let God prove it, you don't have to always talk or compare your worth.

Matthew 6:6
But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly.