Tame my Tongue God PLEASE

#rantSoRandom 

James 3:8, 10 But the tongue can no man tame; it is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison. Out of the same mouth proceedeth blessing and cursing. My brethren, these things ought not so to be. 

*****It's has really been bothering me because this chick is on that crazy, because I'm not going to kiss her butt and allow her to try to manipulate and control me like she does everyone else!  (The Holy Ghost inside of me is too strong) 

1.she lies a lot, but always cover up with "oh maybe you mis understood me") <~girl bye

2. She's very deceitful 

3.she's manipulative

4. They are some users and want people to feel pity for them so they can get free housing, free cars, free food, free life! 

5. She gossips a lot

6. She's judgmental

7. Her attitude is the main reason why unsaved people run from "saved" people! 

^these are all the things I experienced with her, and told her in a Christian way. 

 I feel like I'm in my feelings because, I'm actually trying to do what God is telling me to do but her negativity is like a thorn in the church and nothing positive will ever manifest if she's always manipulating people! (She's so so lucky I'm not the old me, because I almost went there but God held my tongue) 

I honestly shouldn't be bothered because I know life, IT still goes on with or without. I'm just glad when dealing with difficult situations God held my tongue! ****

Job 6:24 Teach me, and I will hold my tongue: and cause me to understand wherein I have erred. Proverbs 10:20 The tongue of the just is as choice silver: the heart of the wicked is little worth. 

To Divorce? Or Not?

You know if you aren't married or have never been married.

 

              Why would you tell people married people to get a divorce. God put them together for a reason, and because of that reason Satan refuse to see God's blessings. So Satan harden the heart of the two, to make them think their marriage is irreconcilable. You know, he trick their minds into thinking there's not anything either one can say or do to work it out!
                       Instead as a Christian you aught to encourage them to find solutions, communicate in a positive manner, and use the word of God to lift them up, pray with them, and pray for them. 

"Genesis 2:24 Therefore shall a man leave his father and his mother, and shall cleave unto his wife: and they shall be one flesh. " 

                     When God allow two people to get married the two really do become one. 

There was a pastor,  a couple of friends that weren't married, and friends in miserable marriages, that encouraged a couple's divorce during a time of their weakness. They sought help not realizing  the pastor was lost and of course encouraged divorce because he was divorced. Therefore he didn't see anything wrong with divorce. With that pastor experiencing a divorce through his pain and emotional bondage from the first, it would have been hard for him to encourage someone to do something he couldn't even do right! (Marriage to 1 woman)

"1 Corinthians 7:3, 5 Let the husband render unto the wife due benevolence: and likewise also the wife unto the husband. Defraud ye not one the other, except it be with consent for a time, that ye may give yourselves to fasting and prayer; and come together again, that Satan tempt you not for your incontinency." 

                    Think about what the bible teach us, when we are saved we are married to Christ/God so I ask you are we allowed to divorce Christ or would you divorce Christ the minute something doesn't go your way? NO 

"Matthew 19:5-6, 8 And said, For this cause shall a man leave father and mother, and shall cleave to his wife: and they twain shall be one flesh? Wherefore they are no more twain, but one flesh. What therefore God hath joined together, let not man put asunder. He saith unto them, Moses because of the hardness of your hearts suffered you to put away your wives: but from the beginning it was not so."

                    If you read in the book of Revelations it talks about us Christians and how Jesus was sent and prepared a way for us, but it is reference as to a husband and wife!!! "Revelation 19:7-8 Let us be glad and rejoice, and give honour to him: for the marriage of the Lamb is come, and his wife hath made herself ready. And to her was granted that she should be arrayed in fine linen, clean and white: for the fine linen is the righteousness of saints." 

                    Well even though I am divorce, I cannot encourage a married woman to get divorce no matter what she goes through JUST REMEMBER IT TAKES TWO.  It's not always a one sided  story, no matter how much you put the blame on the other. Ask yourself "What am/did I do wrong?" just think about what your contribution to the problem was.  No one person is without fault! 

I love the Lord with my whole heart

I started discipleship classes in January of this year, I felt like God was leading me  to get to know him deeper and trust him because I have TRUST ISSUES. I went through the steps first I took the class call The Cost of Discipleship for six weeks little things were happening to me and I kind of shrug them off.

Then I finished that class and bought my main discipleship book and was studying it daily, and meeting with my mentor, but soon after that big things started happening to me, I started changing and things started breaking down in my life. I was in a state of depression, anger, bitterness, lust, gave in to some temptations, low self-esteem, loss of my car, falling in and out of love, over eating, and lots of other things.

You know after going through most of the things I was going through I didn’t give up on what God kept telling me byt staying in his word. The worst part og going through it all was, I would meet with my Spiritual Mentor Frequently and soon after, our weekly meetings became shorter and shorter then it was some weeks of not meeting at all, I began to doubt if what I was doing for God was right and if it was for God at all!

I kept second guessing myself asking if everything I am doing if I am doing it for God and how do I know I am doing it for God because I just wanted to be a good person and not the person I once was.

God revealed to me

2 Timothy 1:7

⁷ For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

So I began to study more and more as I was forced into the trials I was going through, you know what kept me encouraged was I kept remembering it is someone going through something way worst than me! Not only that but God revealed to me about Jesus and what he went through!

Matthew 27:27-34, John 19

Mark 15:14-25

¹⁴ Then Pilate said unto them, Why, what evil hath he done? And they cried out the more exceedingly, Crucify him.

¹⁵ And so Pilate, willing to content the people, released Barabbas unto them, and delivered Jesus, when he had scourged him, to be crucified.

¹⁶ And the soldiers led him away into the hall, called Praetorium; and they call together the whole band.

¹⁷ And they clothed him with purple, and platted a crown of thorns, and put it about his head,

¹⁸ And began to salute him, Hail, King of the Jews!

¹⁹ And they smote him on the head with a reed, and did spit upon him, and bowing their knees worshipped him.

²⁰ And when they had mocked him, they took off the purple from him, and put his own clothes on him, and led him out to crucify him.

²¹ And they compel one Simon a Cyrenian, who passed by, coming out of the country, the father of Alexander and Rufus, to bear his cross.

²² And they bring him unto the place Golgotha, which is, being interpreted, The place of a skull.

²³ And they gave him to drink wine mingled with myrrh: but he received it not.

²⁴ And when they had crucified him, they parted his garments, casting lots upon them, what every man should take.

²⁵ And it was the third hour, and they crucified him.

After reading all of what Jesus went through, there was no way I could ever in life complain about anything I am going through ever!

I realized Jesus loved me when I didn’t love myself, when no other person in the world loved me but Jesus did love me. I knew I just wanted God’s will for me and nothing else!

Psalm 118:1-8

118 O give thanks unto the Lord; for he is good: because his mercy endureth for ever. ² Let Israel now say, that his mercy endureth for ever. ³ Let the house of Aaron now say, that his mercy endureth for ever. ⁴ Let them now that fear the Lord say, that his mercy endureth for ever. ⁵ I called upon the Lord in distress: the Lord answered me, and set me in a large place. ⁶ The Lord is on my side; I will not fear: what can man do unto me? ⁷ The Lord taketh my part with them that help me: therefore shall I see my desire upon them that hate me.⁸ It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man.

I just kept trying to be encouraged even when temptation came my way. At times I would act on the temptation and go against God but I would repent and try not to do those things again, it’s a struggle for me at times not to do what I want because the fleshly me want what I want but the spiritual me want what God want for me!

Proverbs 3:3-8

³ Let not mercy and truth forsake thee: bind them about thy neck; write them upon the table of thine heart:

⁴ So shalt thou find favour and good understanding in the sight of God and man.

⁵ Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

⁶ In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

⁷ Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord, and depart from evil.

⁸ It shall be health to thy navel, and marrow to thy bones.

The methods I used to be encouraged was reading God’s word, speaking the truth, listening to God’s word, removing myself from bitterness and bitter people but interacting with people God placed in my path that were on the righteous path.

Just the other day my mentor an dI were talking and she was like "You know all that time you were going through it Katie I was giving the devil too much power in your situation, I was reading the book of Exodus and realized God allows us to go throught these things so we could remember it was God that delivered us from our trials"
then that hit me what she said because prior to her and I talking I had just told my step dad I believe God allows us to go through certain situations and trials to grow our Trust, see our own strength and gain power through him!

I love you

God is so good!

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. 6.In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

I am reminded of how great God is daily. I loved, lusted, and lost.

Matthew 5:28 But I say unto you, That whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart.

             I just found out how God use people around us to reveal to us our hearts desires, and how true we are to him. God allowed me to go through three important phases, that I’ve truly learned a valuable lesson from and so glad God put me through it to learn from it. I am so pleased God used the person he used to show me how to love God stronger.

Psalm 73:26 My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.

          Often as the flesh we want what we want and forget we need to want what God want for us, we think we can make the right decisions for our lives.

     God reminded me I need to want what God wants for me. With emotions and fleshly temptations we know what God is telling us, but we try to tell God “Wait, no hold on, let me just see where this goes God, I am still for you Father in Heaven but!...”  We see with our eyes and want with our hearts, we think if we could just have what we want then we could be happy.

          This is how God revealed to me how wonderful he is, I met an Amazing Mad Lovable man, then I broke up with him because I just knew it was wrong to love him the way I loved him. It seemed so right when I knew in my heart it was wrong God kept telling me over and over

"So are you going to start listening to me or what, now look at you these thoughts, this reaction, and the way you’re acting"

God kept showing me the signs and I refused to accept the signs. I lost my cell phone 2 phones, got into a carwreck, phone got cut off, dropped my laptop had to get a new one, and transmission went out in my car.

             

                                                  So. 

                I was missing him, I desired to talk to him, I wanted to feel his touch, and I wanted him so bad. It was a bad feeling I was like "this guy" , sadly we started back talking, against God's will, and I had the nerves to pray about it and God surely God revealed to me how God is in control of everything and everyone and sadly the guy and I broke up again, and  my heart was broken for a moment.

Psalm 38:3 There is no soundness in my flesh because of thine anger; neither is there any rest in my bones because of my sin

                        So I dove into the bible to find answers asking to why, why am I always trusting people and getting hurt. I wanted to know why I was hurt God always reveal the truth to me, but, at that time I didn’t want to see or hear the truth because I was so happy someone loved me and I loved them back. I had went through a period of being emotionless, not capable of loving anyone or having feelings for anyone on an adult level.

                   I am so saved by God because the thoughts are just as bad as the actions, and God knows how bad I wanted to act on the thoughts of him that brought joy to my heart at that moment. I was mad because I know what I want for myself isn’t right and it will never be right, I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t trust God when God was telling me on every level it was going to end up wrong. I was mad because I feel like I can't trust God and I know God only want what's right for me.
              
                I love God for loving me so much, God reveal the truth to me even when he knows it will hurt me but it’s all done in love and I wasn’t hurt as bad as I thought I was, after my commune with God it was all ok.  

Psalm 84:2 My soul longeth, yea, even fainteth for the courts of the LORD: my heart and my flesh crieth out for the living God.

               This experience has brought me closer and closer to God, I am so Glad God allowed me to go through it, to learn from it and become stronger. I give God all the praise and all the glory for teaching me to love myself, and to love him stronger.

Jeremiah 32:27 Behold, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh: is there any thing too hard for me?

All I can say is I trust you Father in Heaven strip away from me the desires that are not of you. I know there is nothing too hard for God. I know if it is from God it is good. I know if I wait on God, and not rely on my own desires in the end I will get a greater blessing.

God forgive me please!

When I tell you God works God works. God is so Good!

Psalm 38:5
"My wounds stink and are corrupt because of my foolishness."

            I gained a tadbid information about myself a flaw I never really knew AFFECTED my personality in a negative way. I have to ask God to give me the strength to work on because it is one of his main sins.

2 Corinthians 11:17
"That which I speak, I speak it not after the Lord, but as it were foolishly, in this confidence of boasting."

James 4:16
"But now ye rejoice in your boastings: all such rejoicing is evil."

            *THESE PEOPLE JUST DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I TRULY LOVE THEM, BECAUSE GOD REALLY USED THEM TO REVEAL TO ME MY FAULTS/FLAWS AND WEAKNESSES THAT I NEED TO WORK ON.*
          I LOVE YOU GUYS AND GALS, MEN AND WOMEN, I APOLOGIZE. I WILL SHOUT IT FROM EVERY MOUNTAIN TOP IF I HAVE TO BECAUSE I WAS WRONG, WRONG, WRONG. MAKE A FOOL OF MYSELF INFRONT OF STRANGERS BECAUSE I WAS WRONG FOR THE UNGODLY OUTBURST, BOASTING, AND EVERYTHING ELSE THAT DID NOT GIVE YOU THE GLORY GOD.

Thank you God for using strangers that love me more than I loved myself, more than my blood family loved me. My own family fights with each other, talks about one another behind their backs, steals from each other, and competes with each other daily, they put each other down, and try to control each others every move.

The AA1 family has never ever done that, no matter how mad many of them get with me, still they have never treated me as bad as my blood family, they tell me the truth and revealed to me what I have not seen in myself. This family that you have revealed to me still loves me no matter what. Even when I give up on myself they don't give up on me. God I don't know how to love anyone else except for my son, he is the only one that has ever loved me for me and my faults.

 God you truly revealed to me the love this wonderful group of people have for me.

God you are truly good. Thank you Father in heaven for loving me more than I love myself. I never felt love from anyone like the love I get from the AA1 family, no matter what I put many of them through they still love me, they still come to me with respect, even after the disrespect, and don't sugar coat anything.

“Trust ye in the LORD for ever: for in the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength:” Isaiah 26:4 KJV

I don't even know how to apologize to the ones I have hurt the most, my heart is broken right now. Father in heaven please take control over this situation, take control over me, and reveal to my AA1 family how grateful I am to them for allowing you to reveal your love to me.

Daniel 9:9
"To the Lord our God belong mercies and forgivenesses, though we have rebelled against him"

I am so sorry God, please forgive me. Please allow them to forgive me God please.

Love and let Go

                            Tyler Perry is so right his message came at the time I needed it. I have been going through so much, with my divorce, my family and so called friends lately. I have a problem with forgiving. It seem so hard to forgive after someone has wronged me.
         I began to have hate stored up. I didn't hate my ex husband, I did hate my mom but I hated myself, I guess I hated myself for me allowing them to come into my heart and hurting me so bad. That hate I had for myself I would project on to others.
        
         My divorce was final on Wednesday, September 19, 2012 of last week and it is like a big weight lifted off me. I loved him for the fact we have a child together but after all we went through I didn't and do not love him as a person on a personal level. When the judge said it was over all of a sudden I felt this feeling of joy a feeling I hadn't felt in years. I felt happy, I felt like smiling, I felt like I was the beautifulest woman to ever walk the earth. I felt as if God opened the gates of heaven and was like "It doesn't get any better than this"  I felt God holding my hand and asking me to trust him from now on. I can say I love my ex as a brother in Christ but nothing more.

Isaiah 38:17
Behold, for peace I had great bitterness: but thou hast in love to my soul delivered it from the pit of corruption: for thou hast cast all my sins behind thy back.

         It took a long time for me to forgive him for all the pain and all the mischievousness,  I tell you God used so many people around me to save me, to teach me to love and forgive. It wasn't that they were "christian people", it wasn't the positive things, and it wasn't the advice. I truly tell you it was the negativity I seen in the people around me that forced me to forgive those that wronged me, because I was able to see them in the eyes God provided for me to see them in I began to see those that wronged me in a new light.

Ephesians 4:32And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ's sake hath forgiven you.

         I couldn't do anything else but forgive and love any and everyone that wronged me.  Christ forgive me daily, who am I not to forgive those that wrong me.


“Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompence of reward. For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise.” Hebrews 10:35-36 KJV

Hebrews 13:6 () 6 So we can confidently say, The Lord is my helper;I will not fear;what can man do to me? #Bible http://j.mp/iOqIRu

God loves you.....Romans 10:9-10 () 9 Because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved. #Bible http://j.mp/icLLPS

Sleepy Trust

Psalm 7

 ¹O LORD my God, in thee do I put my trust: save me from all them that persecute me, and deliver me:


So I can't sleep at all...... This is the deal....

I need to pray because I truly need to trust God and Trust God is going to take care of me and Adrian. I am going through some stuff right now... I'm confused and happy at the same time... I am tired and energized.

Boasting

      James 4:16
But now ye rejoice in your boastings: all such rejoicing is evil.
I just got off the phone with a dear friend of mines. We had a great convo. We talked about boasting and how sometimes people always try to one up each other.
In all the years I have known my bestie, I have never heard my bestie dwell on anything.
We prayed with each other and talked about how their family is so torn over small things.
                     Why go through it....
1. you can't take anything with you when you die,
2. You needed someone else to help you get there it might have been family, friends, and definatly God. (no matter if it was a babysitter, tutor, whatever, a friend to talk to)
3. you may boast about what you have or who you know but you don't know what THE OTHER PERSON have they MAY or may not HAVE MORE THAN YOU.
I told my bestie you don't have to always prove your worth to others let God prove it, you don't have to always talk or compare your worth.

Matthew 6:6
But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly.

Hebrews 10:24-25 () 24 And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, 25 not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near. #Bible http://j.mp/i2sLHy

As many of you know I haven't felt anything in a while. Like no sadness and no happiness, I have been like blaaaa. Recently I met a wonderful guy, I mean wonderful in every way, like I should be talking to him as a friend but I am like no. He inspired me to follow my dreams and creativity, so I have really been focusing on me and Adrian. So I thank God for using him to bring that smile back. I am sad that he and I could have a great relationship but I really don't want a relationship with anyone.
I don't even have any desires for anyone. I know he is a great guy but yes you all it is me, I know I know. He is a very successful man and has really encouraged he to follow my success. I have been celibate relationship wise since 2009 when I have to leave my son dad and I have been celibate physically since my son dad. I don't want to be in a relationship until God guide the man he created to me.  I know I have to follow God. Joshua 1:8 () 8 This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. #Bible http://j.mp/gPUojz

Thank you Father in Heaven Teach me

God I trust everything will be just fine because you said it’s going to be just great. I know in my heart, my life, my readings, and my teachings your blessing me every day. I know by just living my life Father in Heaven you know what is in my heart and my desires. I know you are reveling to me your answering my prayers because when I think it you send your people in my life, you send your word to me by showing me you are here with me. You show me you are answering my prayers and I should not give up on you Father in Heaven I love you so much. I thank you so much. I truly know you exist God thank you.

I know I have lots of questions and I am always asking when are you going to bless me and how will you bless me, I just don’t realize like many other people that your blessing me everyday when I look at my son, my mother, my father, my family I need to give thanks for your blessings. I need to give thanks when I go home at night, I need to give thanks when I get a paycheck, and I need to give thanks I have a home to go to. I need to give thanks because I am able to praise you in the open and attend services dedicated to you. God I have no idea like so many other humans in this world the wonderful miraculous blessings you have bestowed upon us. 

Yet, I still doubt you God when I feel like my life isn’t the way I want it to be. I want my life a certain way and I want things when I want them God and I expect you to give them to me when I want my blessings. We are quick to say you are the one and only God in our life. We are afraid to admit we are our own God we want the glory and praise to come to us, we give to the poor and quick to say I gave this or that to that person. When a disaster hit we make sure others know what we done to do our part “I went to help the Katrina victims”. When we help our neighbors “I had to loan **** some money to pay their bills or I had to help ***** get their car fix. When we our family and friends are in trouble and need a shoulder to lean on “Well I had to talk to *** the other day, You know they having problem and I am helping them all I could.” Are we really giving God all the glory?

Father in heaven RELEASE ME from the bond of the world, my old life, my old ways and Baptize me with your anointing.

God I release myself unto you and I give you all the glory, I am nothing without you Father in Heaven.

King James Matthew 8:8

The centurion answered and said, Lord, I am not worthy that thou shouldest come under my roof: but speak the word only, and my servant shall be healed.

God has our back...

I am excited to know God has my back and daily protects my son Adrian and myself.
I plan to definitely raise my son in the way of God. Adrian is my baby and God is using him to save me. I love God so much for blessing me with Adrian. Bible Verse - Matthew 16:24 ()

24 Then Jesus told his disciples, If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. #Bible http://j.mp/gTyBnr
Adrian will be a man of God with the faith to move mountains, my son will be blessed with an anointed spirit. My son has to be protected from the ways of this world.
Thank you Jesus 4 sacrificing yourself on the cross

1 John 2:24-25 () 24 Let what you heard from the beginning abide in you. If what you heard from the beginning abides in you, then you too will abide in the Son and in the Father. 25 And this is the promise that he made to useternal life. #Bible http://j.mp/fxBpv1

Humble thyself

Acts 20:35 () 35 In all things I have shown you that by working hard in this way we must help the weak and remember the words of the Lord Jesus, how he himself said, It is more blessed to give than to receive. #Bible http://j.mp/ebCX7J

Another victory

Today God confirmed the fear I had. A lady I now admire was used by God to heal me. For weeks she had been asking me to visit her church and I put it off. Then one Tuesday for prayer days I took my son to visit that church and he been asking me For 3 weeks to take him back there (God used my son) as I walked in the first person I see was the lady that invited me. We took my son to youth church.
She was like hold on wait I have to get my fiancee, as I waited for her and her fiancee, I noticed something different.
He is blind like all the way blind. I at first thought he would be partially, but no blind blind. As I was looking at her gentally care for him, walking with her man up the stairs. I thought for the rest of her life she has to take care of him. How humble can a diligent servant of God get.
My eyes was opened to what God was telling me. Katie you have to loose who you are if you want to be one of mines. Wow it hit me.
When we got into the sanctuary, this servant of God was called away to help another in need. I became scared and asked God to speak to me.
God then spoke to me and God used my son once again. When service was over the pastor said if we wanted to stay to pray we could. I was scared and I wanted to stay, but I was like no I have to get my son. As my son and I got into the car and we were pulling away, my baby told me "Why did you leave you was suppose to stay up stairs" I was like why. He told me "you needed to" I kept saying to myself next time be cause it scared me. It didn't seem like it was him telling me. 
I prayed and was like we may visit again.

Corinthians 7:1

2 Corinthians 7:1 () 7:1 Since we have these promises, beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from every defilement of body and spirit, bringing holiness to completion in the fear of God. #Bible http://j.mp/eBqiph

God is Good

God is so good, I woke up blank and even today I am just so blank. I was thinking about my life and the choices I have made and good and bad. I was like did I really love my husband when I first married him. Hmm.
That was a question I had no answer to, the question.

Then I was in the car and listening to the radio. The word was good, I didn't even mean to listen to the gospel channel, but I was listening to it and the word was good. The pastor talked about God placing people in your life for a reason.

When I first got married, I loved my husband with my whole heart, but his mom and sister would wait until my husband went to work and tell me things about him and really nothing good. I admit now that I look back on it, I did not have God number one in my life at the time so I allowed the enemy to come into my life and take control.

Daniel 9:9 (King James Version)

 ⁹To the Lord our God belong mercies and forgivenesses, though we have rebelled against him;

From then on I had anger and resentment for my husband, but it wasn't him it was me. I allowed the enemy to come in because I had no idea at the time I needed God to be number one in my life.


God sent so much into my life to shake me up to open my eyes, I love God so much for all he does. If it wasn't for God shaking up my life and opening my eyes I would be where I was and lost comfortable living a life of hate, anger, resentment, and lust.

I say thank you Jesus every day of my life, God opened my eyes to the world around me, I was able to see my husband the real him, I was able to see me, do you hear me I was able to see me.
I prayed and asked God to please forgive me, right now my husband and I are separated he want to get a divorce and I said to the Lord "God I want to follow your path and your will, please take control over me"

It took everything in me to forgive, forgive my mother -n-law, sis-n-law, husband, and it took the longest for me to forgive myself.

I forgave because how can I say I and a Christian and not forgive, how can I preach one thing and do another, Jesus died on the cross for us and  made a blueprint for the way we should live our lives but we choose not to live them that way. If I continue to choose to sin when I know what I am doing is wrong then it is saying "I don't care, Jesus died for me" I want to give thanks at all times and show God I appreciate all he has blessed me with because if it wasn't for him it would be no me.

2 Samuel 22:50 (King James Version)

 ⁵⁰Therefore I will give thanks unto thee, O LORD, among the heathen, and I will sing praises unto thy name.

Moving on

In order to continue the process of letting go it is important to heal in the process. During our spiritual journey we often are hurt.
The enemy has to carry out his purpose to kill-steal-and destroy. But you have to remember we all have free will you can choose to allow the enemy to do his job or move on and follow God

John 10:10:   ¹⁰The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

when you hold grudges against each other your holding a grudge against God, ask yourself "Would God treat me the way I am treating this person" If God treated you the way you treat each other would you be here?
What if Jesus had a choice to die on the cross for us or not die on the cross for us. What if Jesus chose not to die on the cross would you be here?

1. Malachi 4:2 (Whole Chapter)
   But unto you that fear my name shall the Sun of righteousness arise with healing in his wings; and ye shall go forth, and grow up as calves of the stall.

Stop. Think. Do I want to stay where I am with all this bottled up in me or do I want to move on, do I want to be healed, spread my wing and grow with God.
Once you have the grace of God in you there is no way you will continue to do the things you done before, stay who you once where. The Holy spirit will move inside you, make you want to chance your way of thinking, make you want to change your way of life. The holy spirit will make you want to forgive when you do not want to forgive, the holy spirit will make you want to give God all the glory and when you at your lowest point in life where before you want to give up throw in the towel. The holy spirit will bring you up.


Remember forgive always, ask what if Jesus treated me the way I am treating this person.